About Nikki P.

I'm Nikki P., a therapist turned storyteller and host of It's Both — Living in the Messy Middle, a top 5% podcast globally about anxiety, life transitions, and holding contradictory emotions.

I built this show because I was drowning in the gap between who I was and who I was becoming — and I realized other people needed it too.

Every hard human experience asks you to let go of who you were before you know who you're becoming. That gap is the messy middle, full of anxiety and uncertainty. This podcast walks alongside you as you learn to live inside it.

What I do

Podcast Host & Storyteller - Real conversations for people exhausted by the pressure to pick one feeling, one answer, one way forward. I talk to people holding joy and grief, certainty and doubt, readiness and fear — all at the same time. No toxic positivity. No fix-it mentalities. Just real language for the feelings you couldn't name, and permission to be exactly where you are.
Guided Meditations - Grounded sessions for anxiety, emotional regulation, and life transitions — when you need to close some of the tabs your brain has open. Available on It's Both: Guided Meditations for Anxiety, Emotional Regulation & Real Life Transitions.
Speaker & facilitator - Talks and workshops on the both/and framework, navigating transition anxiety, building resilience without toxic positivity, and creating spaces where complexity is welcome. Designed for teams, nonprofits, retreats, and mission-driven communities.
Nonprofit & systems collaborator - I lead collaborative efforts across the social-impact sector—designing cross-agency partnerships and trauma-informed, reflective practices that support the people who support others.

Why “It’s Both”

When you're holding joy and grief, ready to move forward and not ready to let go, certain about the decision and terrified about what comes next — this podcast is for you.

If you're navigating divorce, diagnosis, faith transition, identity shifts, or any major life change, this space offers conversations that validate your complexity rather than trying to fix it.

You're not broken for feeling it all. You're human. And you don't have to go through it alone.

How I work

My lens is trauma-informed, relational, and anti-toxic-positivity. I draw on more than a decade in mental health and social services — from crisis response and advocacy to private practice — alongside years of collaborative systems work across nonprofits.

I care about outcomes. And I care about the wellbeing of the people doing the work to get there.

Because life isn’t either/or—it’s both.

My Background

I'm a licensed therapist who stepped away from clinical practice to build something I needed myself: a space where people could hold contradictory feelings without needing to choose one over the other.

I've worked in crisis response, advocacy, private practice, and nonprofit leadership. I've facilitated everything from trauma-informed care trainings to cross-agency collaborative planning. I've sat with people in their worst moments and helped design systems that support helpers.

And through it all, I kept running into the same truth: the messy middle is where real life happens. And we're not taught how to live there.

So I built this show for the people living in that gap — the space between who you were and who you're becoming. For people holding too many contradictory feelings at once. For people exhausted by everyone telling them to "just choose" or "let go" or "move on."

If that's you, you're in the right place.

Partnering Together

I collaborate with values-aligned people and organizations to create conversations, tools, and experiences that honor complexity—without toxic positivity. If your work serves people in the messy middle, we’re likely a fit.

Speaking & Keynotes

Talks and live interviews on duality/“bothness,” sitting with tension, emotional resilience, and trauma-informed leadership for helpers. Formats: keynotes, fireside chats, panels, retreats.

Podcast Collaborations
- Be a guest on It’s Both (story-forward episodes that normalize emotional complexity).
- Invite me to your podcast (topics: duality, faith/identity in tension, nonprofit systems, mental health, storytelling).
- Sponsorships & Ad Reads (mission-aligned brands/resources only; conversational, trust-first reads).
- Co-Produced Series (limited-run thematic arcs across both shows or platforms).
Guided Meditations
- Commissioned meditations for events, programs, or communities (anxiety, overwhelm, transitions).
- Licensing of select It’s Both — Guided Meditations tracks.

Workshops & Facilitation

Interactive sessions on both/and thinking, reflective practice, and team resilience—designed with trauma-informed care and accessibility in mind.

Advisory & Collaboration (Social-Impact / Nonprofit)

Partner on collaborative systems design, cross-agency partnerships, and reflective, trauma-informed practices that support the people who support others.

What It’s Like to Work Together

Both/and lens. We hold nuance and design for real-life constraints.
Trauma-informed & accessible. Pace, language, and structure that care for people.
Story + substance. Clear takeaways, not clichés.
Lightweight, organized process. Clear scope, timeline, and shared goals.

Values & Fit

People first. No shame, hustle worship, or quick-fix promises.
Mission-aligned partnerships only—especially for sponsorships and co-created content.
Anti-exploitation: we don’t sensationalize pain for clicks.

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